I have never been a believer of love at first sight. I think there can be infatuation at first sight, or attraction at first sight, but to me, love is something you can only obtain by truly getting to know someone. I believe you must invest in that person and come to see their greatest gifts and biggest weaknesses. True love is when you still make the choice to love all parts of them despite their imperfections. I stand by this stance when it comes to dating and relationships, but once I saw my precious baby for the first time, I officially became a believer of love at first sight. True genuine love came pouring out of my heart as I watched my baby move and wiggle for the first time.
As crazy as it may sound, even though I took a pregnancy test that told me that I was pregnant and had bad morning sickness, there was a part of me that still doubted it was all real. I could not wrap my head around the idea that there was a living baby growing inside of me. Even as my Doctor put the jelly on my stomach, I wondered if a baby would show up on the screen. As soon as she placed the wand on my belly and our baby made its first appearance, chills went through my body. Our baby was real.
Baby O was only 9 weeks old at our first ultrasound, and yet, our baby was so full of life. We didn't get to hear the heartbeat yet, but we could see it. It was beautiful and breathtaking. It was crazy to see Baby O's perfect little arms and legs already formed. All Casey and I could talk about after was how anyone could deny that was a baby. We have always been pro-life, but experiencing and seeing firsthand our little miracle made it all the more convicting.
The fact that Casey and I will have a baby in 3 months, blows my mind! To be able to play any part in God's creation, and bring a life into this world is an unreal feeling. Being pregnant, I see more than ever, His perfect design and plan. God is so good.
Happy Ash Wednesday! Thanks for reading! XO
P.S. Make sure to get to Mass today and get your ashes! :)